I Miss You, JESUS

Life has been turbulent for me since I went into a hiatus from the church I am in due to family-related issues. (Don't ask why, my family demands me to deem it classified) I still have my two buddies from church who are in my three of four CMSC majors. They always look for me to help them in their studies. I commend those two: one in the 2nd level of leadership, the other on the 3rd level. Since I was took down from the church leadership, I was like a raft floating in random movement in the open sea. After my leaders told me that I'm back to square-one, nil, zilch, zero in the church, this started a conviction within me that I am being challenged again in this turning point of my life. Why do I have to start again at zero when I began to realize that this Christian life of mine is not always a box of chocolates? If this downturn of my life is caused by my family disapproval after that second academic failure I had, then why would I dare to convict myself of it? That failure...