Welcome Back Myself


Hi, everyone!

I’ve been back in Davao since the end of December 2025, after living in Cebu for about 4 years.

The past four months have been difficult.

I resigned from being a teacher in UP Cebu late last year. I was so difficult to sink in, even today, that I made that decision. Bad experiences, bad decisions, and bad relationships here and there led up to that conclusion that this teaching career was not for me.

I was diagnosed last year with mental health issues, which was alongside my diagnosis of type-2 diabetes and hypertension since 2023. Today, I have been regularly on a cocktail of medications that I take every single day. With that, along with the costs of migrating back home, having to spend for medicines totally drained my savings.

Yes, while I'm not deep in debt, I am literally broke.

I’ve been looking for work, trying to figure things out, and dealing with a lot of uncertainty. I did land a role with a startup, and I’m grateful for that, but I’m also thinking seriously about building something on my own: content creation, writing ebooks, maybe an online business, something that allows me to stay close to family and eventually find financial freedom.

Good things did came though when I got home: I get to learn about how my family has been doing well, having a new pet (see picture), appreciated the changes in my hometown Davao City (especially riding the free DC Bus), got into the church I grew up with the longest time, and being able to spend quality time alone at home.

Right now, it’s Holy Week. I’m at home, slowing down, trying to return to God in the middle of all this noise and confusion. I don’t have everything figured out yet. I’m still searching for direction, for purpose, for clarity.

But this is me starting again. Quietly.

I am committing to start again, and to somehow reset my online presence. And it starts here. 

Hope to see you soon in my next post.

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